Summer Dayz

Even though life sucks mostly for me these days...I am trying so hard to make sure my girls are making fun memories. I don't want them looking back and remembering that I was miserable, sad, and didn't want to do things with them. 

Yes, I realize that I'm faking it a lot of the times...but there are the real times sprinkled throughout too. I'll do what I have to do to plaster a smile on my face for my kids. 

That being said, we have had a great summer so far. 

Spending time with friends on the water is my favorite thing to do. Being with my friends means so much right now, because I feel like it's all I have. 

But they don't want to hang with me as much, because who wants to hang out with the girl who has so much drama going on all the time. Who wants to be triggered by my mere presence of what my husband did. I mean, this is just my assumption. They still invite me out. I'm not as "hey let's hang out" as I was before either. 

Anyway. Regardless of all that, I'm trying to do things that are important for me. My therapist (more on that later) says that right now my focus is ME. Not my family, not even the girls (although they are a very, very close second), but ME. If I'm not ok, no one will be ok.

Boating, pool days, lazy days, summer camp. 

I miss summer as a kid, man. I hope my kids are enjoying it!

End Of School Year Party

Our friend threw their second annual "End Of School Year" Party at their house this past weekend.

Steve was able to join us this year since he switched his schedule around! 

They live about 50 minutes away.

We drove through 3 counties and 7 towns to get to their house. 

LOL. Like wut.

But, just like us, they enjoy the country life.

This is one of the families that we vacation with each summer. (Like, we have no problems yelling at each others' kids if we have to...lol)

The kids enjoyed the pool and pond.

The weather was supposed to be gross and sticky at 90 degrees, but the Weather Gods shined down and it was a gorgeous, sunny, NOT humid, 84 degree day. 

Perfect. 

Just perfect.

Perfect. Perfect. Perfect. 

The kids LOVED the zip line! 

Mila's first time

She loved it!

Ava's turn!

Check out that smile!

Going back to go again!

The big boys (I've known Andy since I was 10)

Me and Trista

They loved the pond

Neither one had enough leg power, so they were cranking it with their arms lol

The Ween was ready to go. It was a long day for her! I find it hilarious that she climbed into this bag. When we're at home and we go to the pool, I put her in this bag to bring her up to the deck 😂

It was a beautiful day, spent with people we love. 

We have a few more fun, planned days ahead this summer and I can't wait. 

#friendswhoarefamily

Country Kids

These kids, man. 

It's always something.

Now that the weather is breaking, we are pretty much forcing the girls to go outside.

They've been cooped up in our house for way too long and now it's time to just get the fuck outside and play. Go away. Go find something to do.

I had to run a quick errand after work yesterday and when I came back, Steve was on the quad coming up back around the house.

He meets me at the truck and just shakes his head. 

"Your kids dude...." is all he could say.

Both girls come around the corner, muddy as hell, proud as FUCK saying they caught a mouse.

AGAIN.

A live one, you guys.

Explain to me how two small girls can grab a live mouse fast enough? With their BARE HANDS? 

And this isn't the first time! The last time she caught a live mouse, she hid it upstairs under a light in a small cage with grass and guinea pig food and some water. Like WUT.

We explained that she cannot keep these little guys, that they have families they need to go home to. So we let them keep him/her for a few minutes and then they had to let him/her go.

Just look at their faces, lol. So proud of themselves! And yes, that's mud on Mila's face.

I'm not sure if I should be proud or horrified.