Yes, I realize that I'm faking it a lot of the times...but there are the real times sprinkled throughout too. I'll do what I have to do to plaster a smile on my face for my kids.
That being said, we have had a great summer so far.
Spending time with friends on the water is my favorite thing to do. Being with my friends means so much right now, because I feel like it's all I have.
But they don't want to hang with me as much, because who wants to hang out with the girl who has so much drama going on all the time. Who wants to be triggered by my mere presence of what my husband did. I mean, this is just my assumption. They still invite me out. I'm not as "hey let's hang out" as I was before either.
Anyway. Regardless of all that, I'm trying to do things that are important for me. My therapist (more on that later) says that right now my focus is ME. Not my family, not even the girls (although they are a very, very close second), but ME. If I'm not ok, no one will be ok.
Boating, pool days, lazy days, summer camp.
I miss summer as a kid, man. I hope my kids are enjoying it!
