Happy Tenth Anniversary

We didn't do a damn thing this year.

We were supposed to be in Santorini on the actual anniversary of our wedding day.

But we're here, in quarantine.

This is not going to be a typical anniversary post.

I was going to post one of those on May 29.

But I couldn't do it.

Why?

Because there's so much shit going on in the world.

My day was spent at home, doing random shit around the house, smiling at my husband of 10 years, every time we caught each other's eyes for a sec.

But I was thinking of George Floyd. 

George Floyd is a black man who was viciously murdered by a white cop.

Yes, it has happened again.

A white police officer (who is meant to PROTECT AND SERVE) put his knee on Mr. Floyd's neck until he was silenced forever.

He begged for his life "Please, I can't breathe" and no one did anything to help him.

This happened less than 3 miles from where an old supervisor of mine lives.

With her black husband.

And black step kids.

What THE FUCK IS GOING ON?

The world is a fucking mess.

Mr. Floyd was murdered.

If he had been white? I'm pretty sure we all know he wouldn't be dead right now.

I'm infuriated.

I'm enraged.

I've spoken to my children about racism.

And about being kind to people.

I explained to them that I experienced it growing up.

I was told to "go back to my country" many, many times.

But.

BUT.

That will never compare to living my life in fear every single day because of the color of my skin. 

10 years ago.

10 years ago Steve and I happily lived a life of oblivion.

What's that saying?

Ignorance is bliss?

We were too young to know any better. We only knew what we knew growing up.

10 years ago social media isn't what it is today.

So 10 years ago, this outright RACISM wasn't splattered across every single one of my electronic devices.

Social media made racism visible.

What has happened to humanity?