Well, this sucks.

Well. 

I lost my job on Tuesday, July 21, 2020.

Somewhat out of the blue. Does that even make sense? 

I knew that my company was going to have another round of layoffs. 

I was hopeful that I wouldn't be on that list.

I made sure my subordinates had enough work to be billable.

And thus, caused myself to not be as billable so my utilization was down.

I get it. 

It sucks.

I'm one of 4 out of my office.

To say I'm devastated is an understatement.

For a variety of reasons.

It's not the same agency I joined 2+ years ago.

I guess I was naive because I've been a professional for 16+ years and I've never been let go from a job.

Like, ever.

So I'm super grateful for that.

But, this is my very first time experiencing all these emotions.

Failure.

A knock to my ego (professionally).

Complete and utter stress on how to provide for my family.

Signing up for unemployment (did that immediately and thankfully, it was rather simple to do and didn't take too long). 

I reached out to my entire network and have already sent my resume out to several places.

Applied to 3 jobs.

I have one call scheduled for Friday.

So yeah.

This fucking sucks.

Wish me luck.